Letter to: My Future Self

 September 20^th, 2023

Dear Future Alexa,

I have so much to say, but thinking about it makes me feel sick. 10 years is a long time, and I am sure a lot has happened. I have so many questions and even though we are excited for the future, thinking about it keeps us up at night. Do we have a family? Or work? Or where do we live?, Did we graduate? How is everything back home? It’s just so much wonder and work, while also trying to enjoy the present.

My hopes are incredibly high thinking how you might feel after achieving many dreams I currently have and probably some I haven’t even thought of yet. I can’t wait to experience love, the happiness of finding love, extending family, and just getting to live with all those ideas and thoughts that have crossed my mind at some point.

Hopefully, you still rule everything you do based on what your heart says, your passions, and thinking about how your younger self might feel about the possibilities.

Do we still like F1 and Heartstopper? Is Dad finally doing better? How many bikes does mom have at home (current count 8)? Did our Bro make it into the NAVY, or did he change his mind? How are Ash and Ice? Any more pets? Are you back in Taekwondo? Do we still have a set of goals in the short and long term?

I can't help myself to ask about health, Are the dark thoughts gone? I am so hoping they are! I am sure it hasn't been easy, and it won’t be easy from now on. But think about how right now I am living your second year of college, away from home, struggling with mental health, and wishing every single day I could get a hug from someone and compare it to your current life. Go hug that person you love, and tell them how you feel!

Gorgeous please take care of yourself! Physical health is important, but you know how bad it can get if you don’t take care of the thoughts going around your head.

I am always and forever rooting for you, so don't ever feel alone.

Life is tough, but so are you!

Life isn’t about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.

Love you with all my heart and soul.

Alexa 19 (2023)

 

P.S. Compare your current taste against me (your past self)

Favorite Song: La Fiesta & On Était beau

Favorite color(s): Black and Green

Best Friend: Paola (Paps) Flores & Emi <3

Favorite Series: Money Heist and Heartstopper

Favorite thing to do: Go to the Gym or Hammocking by the River